Trying to make sense of it all

After another failed attempt to have a biological child, I have given up fertility treatments. I am no longer going to do this to my body. I have gained 12 pounds (at least). I'm tired of the shots, drs appointments, and mental/physical wear on my body and marriage.

It is time to update our 36 month home study. It is going to cost us about $1,900. Not happy about having to pay out more money when we don't expect a referral for about 2 more years.

We are fixing up our house because we are wanting to put up for sale and move closer to Louisville. I hate living so far from church and work. I'm not sure when we will be listing since there is lots of work to be done and my husband is a procrastinator.

I still think and pray for Lauren. I will see ladybugs every once in a while and my heart will flutter just thinking about being Lauren's mommy.

Back from Hawaii

We had a great time! With prayers and drugs my flight experience was great! I was so worried about the long flight. Now I feel like I'm ready to fly all the way to CHINA!

We went to Kauai and it was a very quiet, small and beautiful island. Chad and I were able to see the most beautiful rainbow, amazing falls and gorgeous waters/beaches. We toured Pearl Harbor, USS Missouri and Bowfin just hours before we got on the plane to come back home. I was ready to come home after about 6 days. I was really missing my family and dogs.

Unfortunately, we came home to an Ice storm. Our power went off just a day and half after being home. We stayed with Chad's parents, then the next night we stayed with my mom.